6th July
Friday, June 29, 2007 at 7:13 PM
2nd Version of Zhang Dong Liang's CD will be released on 6/7!
there's more and greater surprises!
http://www.emimusic.com.tw/news.php?news_id=742BOo!
Some peeks at the 203 chalet
Our Class TEE!
ASTRO-BOYS!
Ladies ladies
Nicest design at back-siddddee!
Wrote something impromtu yesterday whilst looking through Maths stuffs.
It Was...
I thought it was just like a normal calendar day
with all the roses blooming and sun shining
it was nice seeing you around the bend
i knew someone know the same secret place
Getting to know you was fantastic
it was a greatest moment of life
looking at your face reminds me of the angels
i knew you're a godsent
it was when i held your hands that i knew what cold was
it was when i turn to see you that i saw your back
it was when i needed you that i find you gone
it was when time came that i saw your lies
looking back at that day
it was not a normal calendar day
it was a mishap and misfortune
it was when we're hurt that we know what blessed is
Yup.It's something so impromptu that it sucks somewhere.But i still like writing these stuffs because it is COOL!
Flow of thoughts
Thursday, June 21, 2007 at 6:39 PM
I've been writing alot in my book although i had not updated on my blog for quite some time.In fact,i would prefer writing at times and scribbling down my thoughts,it seems to more fun.Okay,below is some words i scribbled upon thinking of the future,and of how maturity of one's thoughts changes as one grows.
Growing up is a tiring and cumbersome process.It is vexing thinking of what you want to be when you grow up. It is not as easy as talking about ambitions and dreams but more about the ability to keep oneself surviving. In the early stages of growing up,we can dream about being this and that,but as one grows,one will realise it is not possible being either,and soon,one will lose all the goals.Life is so cruel that it deprives you of any choices.At a crucial stage of life when you are deciding what to major in in university which will change your life entirely,it is difficult to come to a decision what course to take.Not every dream is possible.The dreams i once had are being shot down by reality.New dreams came,but are shot down again.All dreams have to be considered based on monetary means.
"Money isn't everything,but without money,everything is impossible."
Can we ever have a choice to choose how life should be like?Can we ever take a pen and draw our lives like we want it to be and make it as colourful as it can be as if it is a piece of painting?
Sweet Talks:
Marilyn-TWINY:Take care and rest really well. I love the present but i like his more.ARGH!!I want that cute little thing.NOT FAIR!!
Michelle:DUCKIE.Hold your dreams high and work for it.Although i keep laughing at it,well,it isn't impossible to realise at all.Dreams will always be dreams if we don't work for it.But if we do something about it,dreams can become reality.
Evan:SISTER.How have you been?Mugging hard?Well,do take care of yourself at the same time.
Marcus:God.I'm shocked you actually asked me for a cheena album.But well,it's understandable since his songs are purrfect.You can wait for me to get the album,but it will be quite a while.
Kelun:I haven forgot our pact.I will definitely pass my Organic Chem to earn your salute.But you had better pass too!
Give in or otherwise
Friday, June 15, 2007 at 1:54 PM
Life is in a dilemma.
To give in or learn to say NO?
I've been encouraged by some to learn to say NO,but it isn't easy to force the 2-letter word out.
Just ended a 4-day class chalet.It can be described as fun,but at the same time a little disappointing.
It was great with all the help by some people.They helped and played their part,esp Evan,Michelle,Marcus,Hang Wei and Yoggie.
It's encouraging to see people volunteering to help without any probing,it is heartwarming to see people coming up to you and show that you are cared for.I've not reached the stage whereby i can give without waiting for any returns like a word of 'thank you' or for them to reciprocrate.
Thanks to Ghit Hong for volunteering to buy lunch! You're great,ASTRO-boy.
I've to admit that i was rather pissed off at times for being 'ordered'.I was like treated like a domestic helper?Hmm.Some people just got to have more initiative and learn the art of helping.
It isn't difficult to ask 'how can i help' rite?It's probably much easier than saying sorry and much much easier than professing your love.
Well,i was a bit of sad and sorry for not being able to join the rest for night cycling.It's the only activity we could do as a class but we had to give up for some physical disabilities.I don't blame anyone,but i guess there should be a planning for night cycling earlier on instead of a last min thing.
It is not a stupid thing not to know how to cycle just like how it is not stupid to be afraid of small creatures.Everyone have their own fears and disabilities.No one is FEARLESS.
But chalet was fun.At the very least,i've got to learn how to play a proper game of mahjong.Besides mahjong,it was fun to see some people cook and see how others do things.It was esp great during the bbq night when everyone donn on the same set of clothes.
I still love 203 anyhow and i still love the way we are bonded.
For now,at least, I'm not so afraid of darkness because i believe there is always a couple of people to stand up for me and give me light.I believe that behind every dark path there is a path if brightness.It is not easy to learn to appreciate unless you've once lost.
Psst:
TWINY-Marilyn: I missed you lots. Got so much to tell you/ :)
Evan: Thanks for being there. I like your words of encouragement and i love the way you handle certain things.I love it esp when you know what i am thinking when certain things cropped up.
It seems like we have reached the stage whereby we have understand each other totally.I love you Sister!
Michelle:Singing Duck,don't worry so much about what is going to happen.If there's no way to avoid it,just think of how to face it.Thanks for standing up for me and i will do the same for you.Face every obstacle with your courage and it is easy to surpass it.
Marcus:Thanks for coming to invite us down for lunch.It was heartwarming, and also thanks for helping out.Take care and conserve your blood.
TOlerance
Sunday, June 10, 2007 at 12:06 PM
Some things are so unbearable.It is tough to be giving in all the while,and even worse if the efforts are not appreciated.I don't know why but my actions do not seem to be appreciated even though whole lot of the reasons is for the welfare of everyone.It's already at the 99-point level,it's going to hit the bull's eye soon.Tolerating with every single unreasonable and ridiculous requests made,and i'm trying hard to fulfil the wishes of everyone.It isn't that easy,really.It's tough to live a life and even tougher to live a life that pleases others.
I really do feel depressed at times when there's no one to stand up for me when i'm being questioned.I feel so alone when no one gives me a helping hand when i'm at the trough of life.Okay,i want to be an emo-girl no more.
Someone once sent me this sms trying to make me cheer up because he thought i was depressed.I guess it's the right time now to adopt this approach.
The message goes like this:
Take things easy,obstacles are those scary things we see when we take our eyes off our goals.
Stay focused and do not be moralised by obstacles.
Remember calm in key and there's always a solution.
I guess this is the right kind of attitude to approach to make it in life and never slip into a moment of depression.
Okay,let's just bid the emo-girl goodbye and start on something more optimistic.
Apparently,i was so lost in life looking for a goal so i went for a Career Seminar.I have to say that the whole event is awfully AWESOME.It's the only appropriate word to describe.
I used to doubt my ambitions thinking that it cant bring me through life,it is just a far-fetched dream in this competitive society.Nahs,now it is no longer like that.The talk gave me hope and i've decided to try for it.One of speakers said:It is not the salary that matters,it is your passion.As long as the salary is enough for you to live life,it is good enough.
There was also a speaker who told me being in the mass comm industry is not an easy and smooth-sailing job.One has to be innovative and ultra creative to be at the top,otherwise for life,one will just stay at the bottom.This is just how competitive the industry is.
A word of advice to lost souls out there,GO attend any career seminar given any chance.It can really at the minimum let you see the difficulties in any industry that you had never once imagined.
Special thanks:
Evan:I love you so much!!Our love for the same things never die.Let's wait for GAI BAN! Let's not forget all our dates:to TAIWAN,to **** and also to do what Michelle wants.(YaZi,MaZi,ErZi)
Michelle:DUCKIE >I love you so much too!I love your voice,MS SINGING DUCK.It's great and awe-great.Remember our far-fetched dreams,let's strive for it.Believe in your dreams and it will come true.Lady,you told me my voice can be nurtured,so can your Chinese. :))
LEARNING LEARNING LEARNING
Wednesday, June 06, 2007 at 11:36 PM
I want to learn learn learn!OKay,better make myself clear.Not in terms of academic.But,i have already made up my mind to take up 2 courses to make myself musically-inclined.Haha.
Nah.I just want to learn,really interested to learn classical violin and the classical piano.I need the money.
Psst:People,the best birthday present for me is to help me enrol in either courses.You can help me pay for it too if you don't mind :))