Life is in a dilemma.

To give in or learn to say NO?

I've been encouraged by some to learn to say NO,but it isn't easy to force the 2-letter word out.

Just ended a 4-day class chalet.It can be described as fun,but at the same time a little disappointing.

It was great with all the help by some people.They helped and played their part,esp Evan,Michelle,Marcus,Hang Wei and Yoggie.

It's encouraging to see people volunteering to help without any probing,it is heartwarming to see people coming up to you and show that you are cared for.I've not reached the stage whereby i can give without waiting for any returns like a word of 'thank you' or for them to reciprocrate.

Thanks to Ghit Hong for volunteering to buy lunch! You're great,ASTRO-boy.

I've to admit that i was rather pissed off at times for being 'ordered'.I was like treated like a domestic helper?Hmm.Some people just got to have more initiative and learn the art of helping.

It isn't difficult to ask 'how can i help' rite?It's probably much easier than saying sorry and much much easier than professing your love.

Well,i was a bit of sad and sorry for not being able to join the rest for night cycling.It's the only activity we could do as a class but we had to give up for some physical disabilities.I don't blame anyone,but i guess there should be a planning for night cycling earlier on instead of a last min thing.

It is not a stupid thing not to know how to cycle just like how it is not stupid to be afraid of small creatures.Everyone have their own fears and disabilities.No one is FEARLESS.

But chalet was fun.At the very least,i've got to learn how to play a proper game of mahjong.Besides mahjong,it was fun to see some people cook and see how others do things.It was esp great during the bbq night when everyone donn on the same set of clothes.

I still love 203 anyhow and i still love the way we are bonded.

For now,at least, I'm not so afraid of darkness because i believe there is always a couple of people to stand up for me and give me light.I believe that behind every dark path there is a path if brightness.It is not easy to learn to appreciate unless you've once lost.

Psst:

TWINY-Marilyn: I missed you lots. Got so much to tell you/ :)

Evan: Thanks for being there. I like your words of encouragement and i love the way you handle certain things.I love it esp when you know what i am thinking when certain things cropped up.

It seems like we have reached the stage whereby we have understand each other totally.I love you Sister!

Michelle:Singing Duck,don't worry so much about what is going to happen.If there's no way to avoid it,just think of how to face it.Thanks for standing up for me and i will do the same for you.Face every obstacle with your courage and it is easy to surpass it.

Marcus:Thanks for coming to invite us down for lunch.It was heartwarming, and also thanks for helping out.Take care and conserve your blood.